Lonesome

LONESOME: sad or dejected as a result of lack of companionship or separation from others


Everywhere I am.
Everything I do.
You are there.

So far in the first 3 hours of today:
* My waking dream of the morning.
* The Little People display at preschool.
* Your “hair twin” dropping off his granddaughter.
* The music in my iPod.

I dislike masking my grief, mourning, sadness…
The only outlet in any given day is the shower.
And maybe a random pumping session at work – thank God I’m still nursing.
Life must go on, unbearable as it may be some times.

11 weeks is approaching.
I had never gone longer than a week or two without talking with you.
I had never gone this long without seeing your face.

I am lonesome for your voice. I am lonesome for your face.

I am so lonesome for you.