I miss you more than words can possibly describe.
Crap hit the fan this month, and to not be able to get your perspective on it just about sent me over the edge. Or maybe I am over the edge.
I try to be strong, for you, for me, for everyone. I am trying so hard to "be the ball." But it all feels like an act most of the time.
Losing you permeates everything for all of us.
Last year at this time I was planning in my head the 40th anniversary party we'd have for you and mom in 5 years. I was with you as we said goodbye to our family home and watched so many things be sold at auction.
There were so many things ahead.
I miss thinking about the future with you in it. I miss your hugs and our phone calls.
I am heartsick to the very core.
