March 1, 2013.
That was my last post. Huh.
So much life is squeezed into every day these days. I am still grateful for life. I am still grateful for the lessons I'm learning. But there is a but.
...BUT I am tired. Even with a good night's sleep or two, I am simply tired.
Who was I a handful of years ago...when I thought I could have a fast-paced, exciting career that challenged me, stimulated me, using my God-given gifts to make a difference?
Who was I when I knew what was happening in my friends' and family's lives. . .and was there for them? Not to mention what was happening in my city, state, world?
Who was I when I vowed to not let "special needs" define me, my child or my family?
Who was I when I thought having three kids would be hard, but manageable?
What IS that word any more? Man...age...a....ble. Hmmm.
Life has a million and one ways to make it so very hard to make life-giving choices.
And yet, I know this is not forever. Just a REALLY LONG STRETCH of challenge that I need to figure out how to enjoy because in 20 years I will wish I was back at this point.
I just hope I don't spend the next 20 years wondering Who was I . . .